SPiNNiNG: Vanilla Twilight by Owl City
Martin woke me up around 4AM-ish while he was getting ready for MEPS. And I ended up falling back asleep. He called me again when he was done with MEPS. And said he’d call me again when he got to the airport. He called me around Noon while he was waiting to board his flight. We got to talk for a little bit, then he went to board his flight to Arizona. He called me when he landed then texted me rushing to his next flight. And called me again when he landed in Texas. Then he called me again for our last phone call. He told me to be good and be strong and to make him proud while hes gone too. He also said “everyday, you’ll be okay”. And every time he says that, it hits me so hard that hes not going to be here.
Today was full of nothing. I did laundry. I had KFC Chicken Pot Pie with Mashed Poatoes and a Cherry Pepsi (they didnt have Dr. Pepper) — my I’m sick/sad meal. I didnt do much today. I’m looking for some wedding favors. Making lists of things I need to get done, tweeting my heart out. I played Bubble Town on Facebook (for the first time in forever)! I started a Target wedding registry. I feel like I’m asleep but awake. I’m so numb right now, I dont even feel like blinking. It hasnt really hit me that hes not here, I’m not panicking as much as I thought I would be. I attempted to make a haul but ended up just closing the window *sigh*.
Lornalyn sent me a message on Facebook about when Jerico joined the USAF. I thought that was really sweet of her =).
I might be sad about this, but I know its for the better and I know if we can get through this, we can get through anything. We’ve been through so much already, distance shouldnt be a big deal. I know hes going to make our lives better, and the most I can do is support him. We both need the time and the distance to better ourselves. To be better for each other. I know we’ll both miss each other a lot, but this is for the better *sigh*.
I’m a little happy that we’re in this situation. It kinda made me realize who my friends really are. And knowing who your real friends are is always a good thing.
