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Earlyyy wake up call!

by zel

Martin called me all morning this morning for some reference information. He called me several times actually and I fell asleep between calls. I think I answered one of the questions he asked me with my eyes still closed and my head still under the blanket followed by a mumbled “okay yeah I’ll get it. K love you bye” and rolled over, called the school, asked for the info, wrote it down all with my eyes closed. I knew having a notebook next to my pillow would be handy some day. During the calls when I was more awake however, we got to talk for a bit. Not about much because I didnt know what kind of time limit we were on.

But I did mange to ask what Marissa was going to wear to the wedding, tell him about my page rate, and a bunch of other things. I think I covered the important things this time. The rest of the small talk was a blur because like I said (or hinted) I wasnt completely awake during these calls. It was nice to hear his voice on the other line, for a few hours it felt like he was home and everything was normal again.

He called again around noon saying it was his last call of the day and to say thank you for getting him the info and to tell Boq he loves him (which I thought was super cute). I told him when he comes home hes gonna have to tame him cause hes so jumpy. I also gave him a big kiss on the phone and he laughed. I’m glad he smiled, he needs to start smiling/laughing more often on the phone! I’m tired of these sad phone calls! Goodness.

I kept telling myself all day I was going to clean my room.

I didnt.

Did you expect it?

I did LOL!

I just emailed Nicolas Dromard (Fiyero for the Wicked SF production) a rather huge request, I hope he approves my request! Not saying what it is just yet, but its a gift. For someone :)

I’ve been bugging Nicolas for the last few days lol! At least he’ll know who I am when I go see Wicked for the 3rd time haha!

I registered a new domain. Since I have unlimited hosting, just to test it out. So I registered it and I was all excited and I was like and then what lol! Its still processing, so we’ll see! I saw that I could renew my domain for $10/year and I got excited til I realized it was just to register to host was wayy more than that lol! Darn, you fooled me again!

I think I’m actually going to keep this one, instead of re-registering a new one all the time. I need to stick with one, for once. We’ll see how that goes.

Hopefully cleaning tomorrow!! Hopefully.

Oh! I got the Wicked site up, and some content up. I like the layout but I’m not happy with the content. Its gonna take some getting use to/work. But I think I’ll get it. Or I’ll try to, I’ll post a link if anyone’s interested (does anyone read this?!) lol.

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Oh crap, its almost December!

by zel

So with all the chaos going on with the wedding and with Martin’s graduation I completely forgot that its almost December. I mean… I didnt forget it was almost December but I forgot its almost Christmas!

I’m not the type of person who shops for Christmas gifts a weekend before Christmas like my other half. I dont buy them too far in advanced either where they’ll lay around my room causing clutter but considering how hectic this December is going to be, I might just have to start Christmas shopping a little earlier than usual. The part that worries me is that I have no idea what to get anyone! Not to mention Marissa’s birthday is in December so would that count as two gifts or one? Maybe I can buy her a birthday gift and Martin can handle her Christmas gift. And what do I get Martin?! I was thinking a DSi since I’m not getting it for him for his graduation but that’s it? Just a DSi? Did I mention I’m not a fan of buying just one gift for people? Yeah, its a bad habit I have lol.

*sigh*

I mentioned how I emailed Nicolas yesterday well… he emailed me back to let me know I’d be able to get his autograph and to see him after the show :D I was literally screaming (in my head of course, people were sleeping!) and cheesing like it was nobody’s business lol. So that was pretty exciting.

I also received a phone call from Martin this morning. He actually woke me up. He had to get the info for the graduation background check thing. We had a nice 14 minute phone call but everything is such a blur when you’re unsure of your time limit and you kinda just say as much as you can as fast as you can, you know? So I dont remember much of the conversation, which sucks! I told him about Boq and he laughed, I’m glad he laughed. And I’m glad he liked his name hehe. Told him that all of the wedding stuff is pretty much done and I’m waiting for everything to ship. My Wicked news and some other stuff and forgot to tell/ask him other things. I was half asleep, which also sucks.

His school is in fact in Florida and I’m not looking forward to that, he says he wants me to move out there with him… but… I dont know. That’s across the country! We’ll see how that works out though, I’m not ready to leave just yet. Then again, you never really are… *sigh*.

I’m not a fan of daylight savings this year. It’s 4:16PM and the sun is setting like its 6PM. Blah!

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Another day gone…

by zel

I had a few things to do today, like finish up some necklaces I have to send out later this week or put together a package and update my blogs… but I didnt, I just sat here. Waiting for a phone call, and another day passes that I dont get one :( I’m trying really hard to not hate this, but it just gets harder and harder. Isnt it suppose to get easier? I guess I’m just so stressed out and lonely that I just want him to come home already. I know I shouldnt expect phone call’s, they just make me put my day on hold but I cant help it either. It just sucks… :(

I did however manage to talk to the cake department about my wedding cake and to the chapel place to ask questions about the photographer and floral. Now I just have to pick out pictures of what I want mine to look like for both. Its just kinda lonely planning out your wedding without your fiance being able to help you, you know? It causes less arguments, but I just wish he was here to tell me what he wants too, you know?

I started a Wicked fan site last night. I spent last night thinking about what to put down for content while I was falling asleep, and I have a few things to post… but I didnt get around to it. Maybe later tonight. I’ll link it once its up and running, not that anyone reads this or anything :(

Man! I hate feeling down, its such a lousy feeling.

I was trying to decide what to name the new Robo baby. I havent taken pictures of him yet, again, maybe later tonight. I shoulda probably took some during the day but I didnt really have time. I was trying to decide between Ace or Boq (get it? Munchkin… dwarf hamster? hahaha…). But I’m not completely sure if the Robo is a boy and Ace seems like a good unisex name. Though I really wanted to pick Boq. Or Nessarose lol!

I need to start putting moisturizer on my face, its not getting cold (it still feels like summer here in CA) but my face is starting to dry up and peel. Blah, I hate when that happens!

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The chances of finding someone like you.

by zel

Lucky me :)

Yesterday I received two letters from Martin. Both three pages long (at first I was convinced this couldnt be my finace! He hates writing, but there it was. In his sloppy handwriting) and a letter about his graduation. I swear, I cried the whole time I was reading his letters. He was telling me how challenging everything was and just like the strong person he is, he was writing down plans to do better on his runs, his push ups, his crunches. I wish I was half as determined as he is when it comes to things that he fails at. I simply just give up. He never gives up, he never even thinks about giving up. And I admire that about him. He was telling me that he thinks of me when things get hard. And it makes me want to run over there (yes the whole how many states over) and just give him a huge hug and kiss. And let him know I believe in him. He also mentioned he wanted Olive Garden (OG is my favorite restaurant but he hates it there!) and he goes “its funny how when I leave I miss everything, or maybe I just want to be with you” and I just broke down. He would follow me no matter where I went, to the ends of the Earth if that’s where I wanted to go. And not in a lost puppy type of way, but in a I-want-to-be-where-you-are-always type of way.

I had just got done texting his mom the graduation details and my phone starts to ring, and its him!! Imagine my surprise. I picked up and he was on the other end, cheerful “Hi baby! What are you doing?” I missed his cheerful “Hi baby!” and so many things just flew out of my mouth. And suddenly, I just went blank. I know there was more I wanted to say and nothing was coming to mind! I hate that we’re on a time limit, it makes me forget things. Then he had to go, and I wish our phone calls werent bittersweet. We dont get enough of them and I dont want us to be sad when he hangs up. I’m determined to not let it end that way next time. I’m determined to have him laugh and smile when he hangs up the next time.

We’ll see each other again. Just a few more weeks, we’re strong enough to get through this. I’m so proud of him. I cant wait to spend a weekend with him and listen to all the stories he has to tell.

The wedding planning is… going. Not as fast and as final as I’d like it to, but… its getting there. I figured out the table decor. My main stress is finding a dress. Cause I’m not going anywhere unless I find a dress! My mind is just… everywhere right now.

Wedding planning, graduation planning, jewelry making planning, just… everywhere. Lots of planning.

I was calling a bunch of buffet’s in Las Vegas today and it looks like I’ll be sticking with the original plan. Everything else just… doesnt make sense and I dont know how good their food is. I dont want to risk it. Favors are slowly coming together… filling up my planning journal, rather quickly lol.

I started reading Sweep: Book of Shadows today, a few hours ago. And I’m down to having 1/4 of the book left! This book is so good. I’ve always been interested in Wicca and Greek Mythology and stuff. So, yeah, this book is great. My family is catholic so, I kinda know how Morgan feels. Its just… insane lol. I wish Martin was here so I could tell him about it, hes always interested to know what I’m reading about.

Goodness, how did I get so lucky? :)

[edit @ 7:40PM]
I finished the book. Darn! Now I want to read the rest of them!
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Eye twitching.

by zel

So the other night, I found out my dog peed on my box of soda and the nerves under my right eye started twitching. And this happens sometimes, so I figured it would just pass. Well, three days later and its still twitching. I was watching it earlier and it just… freaked me out. It looks like something’s trying to break out! Gah! Not to mention that its a bit uncomfortable. I called Kaiser but there was a 12 minute hold so I just hung up and googled it (which is probably what I shoulda done in the first place).

It doesnt surprise me that its caused by stress and lack of sleep. Of course, cause everything else wrong with me (stomach problems, headaches, etc) is linked to stress. Which is starting to make me think that maybe I stress a little too much, just a little. It’s suppose to go away after you get enough sleep.

So! I tried taking a nap earlier. I tried for an hour and twenty minutes. But for some strange odd reason CA feels like we’re in the middle of summer right now. I mean, isnt it the end of October?! It’s nowhere near cold. And it’s seriously seriously making me annoyed. I hate summer. I feel like we’re stuck in The Chronicles of Narnia but instead of forever winter, we’re stuck in forever summer. Six Flags Fright Fest in the summer, that’s a sight to see! So, my attempt at napping failed which means right now, as I’m typing, my eye is twitching.

I have the Wicked soundtrack on repeat, it makes me happy. I’m itching to see the musical again. And determined. Yes, very determined. I hope to catch Teal Wicks the next time I go. Though I do love Vikki Noon, I’m curious to see Teal Wicks performance.

I was semi expecting a call from Martin today. And of course, I didnt get one. Maybe I should start being busy on Sunday’s. I always end up staying home and waiting around for a phone call. The last few days have been good since I havent had time to miss him. But I’m taking a few day break from wedding planning (which means staying home kinda) cause that’s stressing me out to the point of no return. Just, everything about it is stressing me out. Thank goodness he comes from a crafty family, Marissa has been helping me figure out a lot of things.

I should spend one hour everyday away from the computer and just relaxing. Even if it means laying on my bed staring at the ceiling and forcing myself to not think. Cause I seriously need to chill sometimes.

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