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As many times as I blink, I’ll think of you tonight.

by zel

PLAYiNG: Vanilla Twilight by Owl City

One year & six days ago you left for the military. Today last year I was probably sitting in my room, with this song on repeat, blogging and thinking of idea’s for our wedding. Trying to keep myself occupied and away from thinking of the fact that my best friend was beyond my reach. Adjusting to the fact that the next few months were going to feel empty and lonely and very quiet.

It’s October again, and October reminds me of you. Of our first date, of our first kiss, of the first time you left me to do something more with your life. Even if it meant leaving me behind. Is it bad to say that you’re here this year and it just feels… weird? I’m being pulled into the memories of last year and strangely, I miss it. I miss you being gone, I miss the excitement and the stress of planning our wedding, I miss driving around the bay area in search of a dress that will totally surprise you when you see it. I miss going to the mall with my sister in law! Watching Glee and bugging Nicolas Dromard! Reading Sweep, writing you letters about my day every night before bed and clinging to my cell phone like it was my air supply.

I’m happy to be able to spend this year’s end of the year with you instead of waiting for you to come home (but I have to admit, I do wish it was last year lol). And I’m excited to start a brand new life with you when the new year comes.

xoxo

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He’s home! He’s home!

by zel

Martin’s been home for about a week, which might explain my MIA-ness lol. Been catching up and spending time with him. I’m glad he’s finally home :)

The wedding is in less than 25 days, the nervous-ness is starting to catch up with me. Quickly. He declined walking down the isle instead of me. Darn, that sucks :(

Its been freezing cold lately, just how I like it! Except I dont like how my toes and my fingertips get numb so quickly from how cold it is. It was suppose to snow here in Nor Cal yesterday… crazy! It did snow in some parts of Nor Cal, but not in my area. Lame. I’ve never seen real snow before, so I was a bit hopeful. Even though they did the same thing last year and there was no snow, this year… there was actually a bit of snow. How weird!

I feel like Christmas is coming up too quickly. I havent had a chance to wrap gifts, or even SHOP for gifts and put up my little tree. I dont think I’ll have much time any time soon either considering how quickly Christmas is coming up and the wedding and everything… I cant even find time to change my bed sheets to my favorite fleece ones! I need to make time, and soon! As much as I like the cold, all I ever want to do is sleep lol!

I’ll try to blog as often as I can. I hate that I’ve been MIA, I have a lot of catching up to do!

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Super excited!!

by zel

SPiNNiNG: No Love by Kevon Edmonds

Yesterday wasnt as busy of a day as I thought it would be lol. We went to the mall and paid a bill. Walked around a bit. I didnt get my MAC Violet pigment cause I spent too much money on MAC the day before *mocks Martin*. Its okay, I’ll just stock up on samples! Holler!

We headed to the USAF recruiting office after going to mall & it went really well. Some studying and working out to be done but well on the way! I’m so excited!! I was drooling at the benefits when the recruiter was going over them! OMGG. So many amazing benefits. I found out the USAF also has a reserved program, which is pretty cool. After the appointment went to get some gummies from the Asian market for a swap I’m doing (okay and because I wanted some too)! Then headed to Target and got tampons. And just tampons. I hate walking out of Target with just one thing LOL!

Spent the night looking up some exciting stuff. I’m so so so excited! I called my bestie and she was like “HA! You ARE excited! I knew it!” whateverrrrrrr. Haha I <3 her.

The next five months are gonna be busy!!! AHHHHHHHH I’m so excited!!! =D

I also got my MARK rep stuff in yesterday!! Suuuuper excited!! YAY!

Today I tried out the MARK Get A Tint tinted moisturizing lotion and it was pretty good. Besides the first feeling of putting it on your face fades its pretty lightweight and blends really good. I also did a red/blue look with MAC eyeshadows Cranberry and one of the dark blue’s I have (the name is totally not coming to me right now) and it was beautiful! I also highlighted my eyebrows with FLIRT Honey Lemonade (I’m loving that e/s just like I knew I would!) and highlighted with MAC Claire de Lune. Pretty! I liked it! I also wore MARK Juice Gem in Mango Tango. I’m loving the MARK Juice Gem lipgloss!

ANYWAY lol.

I was suppose to go to Pista Sa Nayon today but skipped it. Blah! Went to get some California Pizza Kitchen instead and some stuff from Lush. I went to Sephora and looked at the Stila Smudge Pots, but honestly… I think I’m totally over Sephora. I didnt really find anything I was just aching to get. I’m pretty proud of myself! Had a nice giggly loving day with Martin <3. We also went to Ranch 99 to get some $2 Chow Mien (so good) but they changed the type of noodles today! So we didnt. Just did some walking and looking around. Then went to Target again and got a hot dog + soda combo. Oh we also tried the new Godiva chocolate for summer Lemon Drop. I like it! Its tarty. A lot of Godiva chocolates arent really tarty. I also got a free chocolate (they changed it to once a month now!) so of course I got Strawberry Cheesecake!

Tomorrow’s a chill day. Gonna hopefully do some cleaning and do some more crazy planning. I dont know how I’m gonna work this out, but I’m super super excited!! Gotta edit some videos, take some haul pictures and write up a huge haul update. UGHH.

I need to stop sleeping/waking up late! Seriously, this is so shitty booboo!

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Sneezy.

by zel

I woke up about half an hour or so after I planned to wake up. Hanging out with the bestie today before she leaves for the Philippines.

I started my period last night right before I went to sleep. Which was fine, at least I was prepared and not rudely surprised when I woke up this morning.

I did end up sneezy all morning. UGH! Allergies are so tricky. One day you have them, the next week you dont. Then you do. Then you dont. What the heck is going on?!

I’m waiting for my MARK rep starter kit to come in today, hopefully it comes in today! My MARK haul is suppose to be coming in tomorrow. I hope everything comes in on time! Gotta update the makeup blog some more… I like waiting until I get a bunch of comments, a string on entries usually doesnt get many comments. And comments make me happyyyy!

I’m trying to figure out how to add what I’m listening to on my entries, I’ve seen other people do it on theirs… then again I havent really sat down and spent time with WordPress, which I hope to do some day soon. June is just so busy, so… yeah.

Hm, I guess that’s all I’ve got to say lol. I’m trying to get back into blogging. Even if it is just a scatter of random entries.

Got an appointment tomorrow with the USAF, also got to pay a few bills at the mall… hopefully we’ll get done in time to make it to the appointment. I need to stop shopping and start sorting through things considering I might be moving sooner than I think… and we all know how much I love to procrastinate… *sigh*.

I tried Sims3 yesterday. Totally dont know if I like it. Eep. I dont know… it’s just so… different. I mean Sims and Sims2 were different as well. I guess I’m just so use to something and now I’m like “whoa whoa, wtf is this?!” you know? Its gonna take some getting use to. That’s for sure.

I have a thing for waking up and doing laundry as soon as I wake up… I better go check on that. I always get so lazy when it comes time to get it out of the dryer. Blah!

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I’m horrible at updating!

by zel

I’m online everyday and I’m on blogger, everyday but yet… I dont update!! What’s up with that! Am I that lazy that pointing and clicking is about as far as I can go? I try to blog before midnight since I hate starting an entry with yesterday. Is it just me? It might be…

Anyway, what has been going on?

Sunday I watched UP in 3D with the boyfriend, he wanted to see it and he wanted to see it in 3D lol. I thought it was gonna be boring, but since I’m a huge Pixar fan, I watched it. OMG, first of all… saddest intro to a movie ever. I swear. I was about to start bawling in that packed movie theater at least three times! It was so cute, cause through the whole sad part, Martin would squeeze my hand. I know he wants to make sure I make it to Disney, and it melts my heart that he does. I’ll get there, dont worry babe! After I think we went to Wal Mart cause I ran out of Broccoli Velveeta’s, those things are delicious. I bought the last 3 haha. I hope they’ll restock these cause OMG, delicious.

Monday which was yesterday duh. I’m all digging in my memory like what was Monday…? haha. We went to the mall, he went to the gym and I tried to go shopping, but I couldnt find anything I wanted. I know, insane. I bought everything I wanted at the mall already! I bought 3 MAC paint pots last week, I took another look at the Style Warriors and nothing screamed out to me, I forgot the brush from BE that I wanted to return, I have too many eyeliners/brushes/eyeshadow…. haha. Darn! I forgot to look for the book I wanted though. Lammmeeee! I did get some of the new Victoria Secret Beauty Rush dome eye shadows. Only because I had a free $10 gift card to spend. I bought 6 since it was 6/$15 and I got one free, so heyyy! And that was about it. The guy who works at the bakery I always eat at gave me a 15% off discount on my meal yesterday, weird. Buuuttt I’m not complaining! Ended up talking to Sammie for about an hour, which was nice. I was trying to buy her eyeliner but she was being difficult lol.

And today we went to get gyoza’s cause I’m just way too addicted to them lol. Then we went to Target and I got SIMS3!! HELL YEAH!! FINALLY!! OMG. I bought the demo back in November when I went shopping with Joey. I ended up getting the collectors edition even though it was freakin $70. But I wanted the cool USB drive and the SimCard lol! Besides, I think I shoulda got it cause I am a Sims fan! I also got Hes Just Not That Into You cause I’ve been craving to watch it for a month. I was sad to see that Confessions of a Shopaholic wasnt out yet. I SO want to watch it! We also headed down to the military offices. I knew they werent booked! Hmm…

I also recorded like five videos today. I did my random’s haul video and when I was putting everything away I forgot to mention my V.S and my Cherry Culture haul! ARGHHH! Dont you hate when that happens?! Ah, I’ll save it for next, I guess! So I should be uploading some videos soon. Both my camera’s died on me during video filming lol. I hate when that happens too. I keep forgetting that filming takes up more battery! Trying to think of what I want my site to look like, drawing out navigation and stuff like that… trying to figure out how to advertise my shop, which is really hard.

I dont see why I keep giving myself all these off the wall challenges and sit there like “I cant do this, I cant do this, there’s no way I can do this” but yet I end up doing it. *sigh*. As a business major, I think being a MARK rep would be a very helpful experience. I just gotta think it through.

You miss 100% of the shots you dont take.

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