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No matter how they try to destroy him, never let him die. Never let him die…

Wicked – As Long As You’re Mine

 

I am obsessed with this song. I love how dark and how seductive and how secret it is. If you saw the musical you’d know what I’m talkin about. It’s just, I dont know. That “I dont know how much longer I have with you” theme going on. It’s always something exciting and depressing at the same time.

Wicked – No Good Deed


I’ve been obsessed with this song too. The scene after “As Long As You’re Mine”. I love this song because you can hear her anxiety, you can feel how bad she feels. How much she wants to save Fieyro. How sorry she is. How misunderstood she was. How everything and everyone just turned against her. It was like her breaking point. She accepted that they thought she was a wicked witch when she knew she wasnt. All she wanted to do was help. I love how much emotion is put into it and how much emotion it stirs up.

I’ve seriously been listening to these two songs over and over for the last 36 hours. I cant get enough of Wicked! I’m utterly obsessed. And I love it! I seriously want to see this musical again. At least 10 more times! No joke!

Dang, the last time I was this obsessed with something was Ryan Cabrera back in 05′ haha. Dont you love things that can make you emotional?

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Pandora Radio.

SPiNNiN: Happily Ever After by Case <3
This song always reminds me of summer.

Martin’s been buggin me about checkin out Pandora Radio. So I made a station with Linkin Park and they were playin my jams. Not just LP, but Switchfoot, Nickleback, ect. It was hot! So I made another station with Donell Jones and I’m just slowinnnn it down up in here. So fuckin relaxing!! I love Donell Jones! He got that kinda voice you just take a candle lit bubble bath to, ya dig?

Okay okay, this site is the shit. I love the sound quality on it. Its CD quality, they play songs within the genre of the singer/song you pick. Its pretty spiffy.

Period’s make me sleepy, Its only 1AM and I’m ready to knock out!

I was on Twitter watchin Bow Wow  & Soulja Boy on blogtv… watchin Tila’s grind video hahaha. It was hella funny, nice to know celeb’s are people just like us too. Esp Bow Wow, I’ve been a fan of his since Bounce With Me. Haha!

So I went shopping with the bestie yesterday. Gooooooooodness! Did some damage at Target, not as much as I usually do, so I was happy about that. But then she took me to CCO. Oh goodness, I fell in love. I didnt know the CCO closer to my house (AHHH THEY PLAYIN NE-YO!) was bigger than the one away from my house!! And they had SO MUCH MORE selection! I went nuts! I was all over the place. I was so so so happy to find MAC Claire de Lune eyeshadow!! Hello, Twilight anyone? LOL. They also had some FLIRT! And some Grass Roots (huge Kohls fan too). So that was a nice surprise.

I had fun with the bestie. She’s leavin for the P.I. I’m gonna miss her!! Who am I gonna talk to for the next three weeks?!

So much shit to do today… busy week too. Ahh! Sa’ll good though. Gonna finally cop me a Dyno shirt tomorrow. Cause its about time!

Still waitin on my MARK rep kit and my MARK haul, hopefully it’ll get here tomorrow. I’m super excited for it. Gotta make a few more videos (even though I havent even uploaded the ones I already have). My blog and youtube arent synced, which gets confusing after awhile… bah!

Still gotta make the layout for the makeup site. Yeah, about that… and still gotta code the layout for the other site… yeah… about that too… haha I’m slackin, I know! But I aint been home and I had a phatty headache yesterday. So…. blaaah!

I’ll jump on it though!

I just called AE to see if I could pay my credit card at the store and the operator was like “no there isnt any additional payment method Ms. Aba… Hazel” I giggled. She was obviously tired, she kept correcting herself. I hope I made her night a little better.

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Domain and layout troubles…

I finally got around to attempting to make my domain layout/banner today and I hated it! I hate when I make something & I hate it. It discourages me and I most likely give up. I know, not the best way to go about things, right? Then again I cant just expect to make something amazing if I havent even attempted to make a layout or banner for the last four years. I think I just expect too much out of myself.

::sigh:: back to the drawing board….

I’ve been obsessed with “I’ll Forgive You” by Bobby Valentino && “Jai Ho!” by Pussycat Dolls (thanks to my bestie!). Seriously, only things I listen to. Oh and “Last Chance” by Ginuwine annnnd I found my favorite version of Mambo, Italiano. So that was pretty exciting. Dont you just hate when you love hard to find songs? It gets a bit frustrating at times.

I havent had much to blog about… life isnt to exciting these days…

I finally paid off my school fee’s the other day. That I owed from last semester. I know. Walking away saying “I’m not paying” probably isnt the best way to go LOL. So I went and paid that off & I signed up for summer school classes. I’m listed for the one I wanted and I’m wish listed on the other one I want… I know I should take some GE, but I’m too scared to, to be honest! I’m horrible when it comes to college. But I’m determined to make things right (dont I say that every semester? Hopefully I mean it this time…) even if it means asking Bernard for help/studying in his living room. I’m sure he wont mind!

Oh! The other day I gave in and I GOT WICKED TICKETS!!!!!!!!! I got the day, time and price I wanted! So I’m pretty excited about that!!

Downside of the week/end? A second credit card got its limit lowered. I was starting to think I did something wrong til Sammie sent me an article about how 1 in 6 american’s are dealing with this problem (but it happened to me twice, wtf?!). So I’m not too worried about it. It just sucks they switched my limit in the middle of my billing cycle, so its “over”. Even though I didnt receive this letter they speak of. Its funny how they can email you offers and coupons but they snail mail you the important shit like oh, I dont know… lowering your credit limit?! Gee, thanks.

Yesterday I gave in and ended up buying the Gossip Girl season finale. I told myself I was gonna watch Season 1 and watch Season 2 when it comes out and wait to watch the finale then, but everyone was talking about it so I just gave in and watched it. And I really liked it! Blair and Chuck are the hottest couple ever!

Screw Edward Cullen, I need me a Chuck Bass!!!

Me and the bestie were talking last night. And I was saying “I like when a guy does you wrong then runs back saying how much they need you and how sorry they are, then does it again and creates this endless heartbreaking cycle” and she was like “oh, you mean a-holes?” and I was like “YES! I LOVE THAT!” hahahhaa. Its true, guys are attracted to beezy’s and girls are attracted to a-holes! Maybe that’s why I was so stuck on CJ (sorry CJ, but you know its true. You were a total a-hole but its okay I still *heart* you LOL). Maybe the reason for me is different than everyone else. I dont take a lot of things seriously, and I dont know, I just love when they run back and admit how wrong they were and how they realize how important you are to them. Just the messed up-ness of it all. Is hot haha. Plus nothings better than making up after breaking up. Right?! Sometimes I think I should still be going around making mistakes instead of being with one person for so long. But at the same time, I think I’ve done enough damage to my name lol. Besides, I would really miss Martin. Which kinda makes me gag to actually say that. I know, I know. We’ve been together for five years and I’m still super anti-relationship-ish. Crazy, I know.

Totally off subject, but I’ve been super addicted to ELF lately. Like, as soon as I got hooked on their Studio Brushes, I’ve been making orders from them like crazy! But then I always get those 50% off codes and stuff, so that might be why. They released a new collection, I forgot what its called… Sugar Kiss or something? I wish they’d add more things to their Studio Collection! I hope they do! I finally found the lipstick color I’ve been searching high and low for at MAC (it isnt the exact one since the one I had wasnt MAC, but it matches from what I remember) and I got a Paint Pot, just to see what its all about. I didnt get the one that I assumed I’d get, but its okay.

That’s about all thats been goin on!

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Oh, life.

Yesterday was pretty relaxing. Started the day off with a kids meal from Panera Bread lol. And ended up going to Walnut Creek since it was so nice and sunny outside. Walked around downtown. I got a free Sephora insides gift of something I wanted a full size of. I also got some Mike & Ike Cotton Candy from World Market. I’m excited to try that out! Also snacked on some Clam Chowder, as usual. I was on my sidekick and I was like “why does my sidekick smell like mint…?” and sniffing it. Martin looked at me like I was stupid and he was like “its not your sidekick, its your wrists… babe” cause I had put on Origins On The Spot on my wrists (I have an addiction to that!) and so I smelled my wrist and I was like “oooh you’re right! I keep forgetting. Its like a nice surprise every five minutes” hahah.

Then we realized that the bills still needed to be paid lol. So we headed back to Concord and paid the Verizon bill which was lower than last month, weird. Then paid Martin’s Sprint bill and I got 2 pigment samples from MAC (Golden Lemon — which I’ve been thinking about buying & Pink Bronze — havent seen this one yet), the MA remembered me and brought be back to see their Style Warriors collection display. Oh! The colors!! I decided to skip this collection, but I cant wait to check it out in person when it comes out! I went back to PacSun to see if they had any more of my flannel’s left, and they didnt. Bummer, so I went to Tilly’s and got one of their’s instead. I was looking for a quarter sleeve type. Then we ended the day at Borders reading graphic design books =).

Today’s suppose to be a busy day, I gotta get a bunch of stuff (I havent started) done. Video editing, picture editing, a bunch of cleaning… my OCD is kicking in major today though, cant seem to figure out why. Its such a pretty day, all I keep thinking about is how much I wanna be outside right now! But I do have to get some stuff done… plus I mean, there’s always tomorrow!

I’ve been trying to get back into the habit of blogging more often but I always remember after it hits midnight lol. I blame Twitter and Facebook, its so addicting!

A friend of mine mentioned “Addicted” by Stevie Hoang. I cant stop playing it! I’m a sucker for songs like these, which probably isnt the best thing lol.

Is it just me or does anyone else get lazy right before you have to take the laundry out of the dryer? I always hate that part!

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