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A Month of Thanks – Friends

The concept of friendship has always been a challenge for me. Maybe it’s because I’m shy and I don’t talk too much when you first meet me. Maybe it’s because I don’t think like most females I won’t sugar coat shit for you or tell you what you want to hear. Maybe it’s because my hobbies didn’t include makeup (until I was 23) but video games and playing basketball.

Whatever the case was, I would make friends and they would betray me. And we simply wouldn’t be friends anymore. Maybe I trusted people too easily? Maybe I told them things that I should had known better to keep to myself. Or maybe the people in the Bay Area are just effen crazy. Who knows.

When I decided to do the Disney College Program, I wasn’t expecting to make friends. I just really hoped, more than anything, I would get along with my fellow cast members. That was it. I didn’t expect to be asked to hang out, or to be called or texted on a daily basis. I didn’t expect hugs and inside jokes.

But I did make friends. I was invited to hang out. I did have hugs and inside jokes. I was surrounded by people who wanted to be around me. Just simply me. Whoever I was that day. However I was feeling. They really liked me for who I am. And you guys honestly don’t know how much that means to me.

I am thankful for these people because they have changed my life. Thank you for showing me what friendship meant and for caring even if you didn’t know me all that well in the beginning. And for not making me feel like I was a boring person to be around just because I don’t drink.

Downtown Disney West Side, you will always be my home. And these people will always be ohana <3.

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November, the month of thanks

As if I need more challenges.

But I do miss taking tons of pictures and with the weather and season being so near, maybe this will get me to get back into a few things I miss doing.

As if I have any more time for more hobbies.

I’ve been a little bitter lately. Mostly because the internet has basically taught me that networking with people you know in real life is a bunch of crap. People on Facebook don’t give a shit about other people, they just give a shit if other people give a shit about them. But if you’re on my friends list and you’re trying to get your name out there, please believe I will take that extra one second to “share” or “reblog” your stuff. Because as your friend, I want to see you succeed. Especially if I really believe in your stuff.

Anyway.

Enough of the bitter and negative stuff.

This was all a given.

I’ve decided to update everyday (or at least once a week or something) the things I’m thankful for this month. I usually just do this on Thanksgiving, but I wonder what things I’ll come up with through out the month.

Cause November is one stressful month.

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Happy November!

Yay! The beginning of a new month! This is the time my parents start setting up for Christmas and start playing Christmas songs and everything’s crisp, cold (hopefully) and joyful! This month also means…

  • New free Aerie gift
  • New Wizard of Oz comic book release
  • Wicked!
  • New Moon
  • One more month closer to see my boo!

Yes, I plan on seeing Wicked for a third time this month! I’m pretty excited. Hopefully this time we get balcony seats. Floor seats were lovely when Defying Gravity came on, but horrible when it came to seeing what was going on in the middle of the stage.

Basic Training is almost over! I’m so excited! And nervous at the same time… I’m probably going to be nervous and shy and self conscious when I see him. Blah! Then he’ll be home for Christmas (hopefully) and our wedding isnt too far away from that.

The wedding planning has been going… better. I should had said “getting” but whatever. I ordered my dress! It’s wonderful. Not my first choice (my first choice didnt come in blue, at all… boo) but it’s just as lovely. I got a shrug to go with it because I’m insecure about my shoulders and I also ordered my shoes. I hope Martin likes my dress! I’m sure he’ll be surprised since its not the dress we decided on when he was here. We also got the table decor’s, we had changed it since Marissa came up with something better. So we’re going to test that out and see how it goes. Also, we’re going to have to test out painting some flowers! Pretty excited about that.

Right now I’m focused on the favors, been looking up some images for bouquet idea’s. We still have to order the customized ribbon and the save-the-dates as well as the invitations. And I need to get the save-the-dates out like… now. But its hard if I dont know if Martin’s Christmas break is solid, so hopefully he calls soon to let me know.

The planning is a lot less stressful now that I have my dress. Whew, thank goodness!

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