A day that changed my life, forever.

Today marks two years since we lost Flixie. And even though it’s been two years, I still can’t watch his videos. I still can’t look at his pictures. Without tearing or crying. It still hurts that he’s gone.

And it’s still insane to think about, because he was a hamster. A small animal that lived way over his expected life span. And a grown adult, should not be crying over a hamster.

But he wasn’t just a hamster. He was my best friend. He was my baby boy and I cared about him so so much. He kept me going on days I just wanted to lay in bed all day and just cry. He was smart for his kind. And I think he cared about me just as much as I cared about him!

I miss his long fur and his scent. I miss giving him kisses in the morning before going to work and school. I miss sharing my tortilla and rice with him. I miss his pretty face and his pretty eyes. I miss knowing he was never lost because as soon as I started shaking his food bag he’d coming running straight to me. I miss how he listened. I miss him running up to his cage bars at the fights sound of me crying. Even if he was asleep. I miss him purring in his sleep. I miss a million things about him that I’m slowly losing memory of and I wish I wasn’t.

I miss you Flixie buns. I hope you’re doing good, wherever you are. And you’re having sweet dreams. I love you. Rest In Paradise baby boy…

Yesterday wasnt spent doing much, I had my first ever Jury Duty summon yesterday morning at 8AM which consisted of a lot of waiting around. I was seriously falling asleep waiting and when we finally got to the court house, I was falling asleep there too! And I was one of the first 18 random picked people. So obviously when the lawyers are asking you questions and you give them a blank stare and when they’re not asking you questions and you’re dozing off, will probably get you excused. Whoops.

Husband was waiting for me outside with breakfast. Isnt he the best? Sad that the Micky D’s there didnt have the bagel breakfast sandwiches but the griddles are good too, everything’s good when you’re starving lol. Went straight home after that, stopping by Cold Stone Creamery for one of their new sundae’s. I originally wanted the Churro sundae but I decided on the Strawberry Funnel Cake.

I did a review for this here on my food blog. Husband wanted cheesecake instead of the french vanilla it came with. What a weirdo! Got some Rubio’s for dinner. I’ve been craving Rubio’s like crazy all week. Then I took a nap for an hour. It was lovely, until I had to wake up. Lame.

The rest of the day consisted of this…

Actually, the last few days have been like this. School starts in exactly one week (wow, really?!) so I’m trying to get things together and relaxing as much as I can before school starts. I’m a bit excited to go back to school. I’m hoping to get my GE done this year, or at least the majority of it. I just found out my school doesnt offer many Journalism courses. That is a bit of a problem considering its my major. So the most I can do is do my GE and transfer.

This is one of our family parakeets. As you can see, he has a tumor of some sort. He’s had it for about a year or two and its gotten worse, there have been times when there’s splashes of blood all over his cage. My mom recently separated the two parakeets, but the one that isnt hurt spends a lot of its time clung on to its cage in the direction the hurt bird is in and talks to him. They put this bird to sleep today, and now the bird that isnt hurt is talking, but there’s no one to talk to. I cant but feel bad for it. He keeps looking in the direction his friend’s cage was in

I’m such a sucker for animals feelings. I dont know if buying another bird would make it feel better since he’s known his friend for years, at least 4 years. Poor birdie

In other news, I changed the layout for the site, I dont know if I’ll keep it. I’m so picky when it comes to layouts!