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Super slack status!

by zel

I know I’ve been slacking on this blog, but I just really don’t know what to do with it. My categories are all messed up and I’m not really sure how to fix it. Not only that but a theme I had back in ’09 messed up the tags so some entries from then don’t have any. Darn my need to be organized and consistent.

School has started. I’m excited for my Humanities class (even if the book is freakin $105) but a little worried. At least I have the next two weeks to focus on it before I have to go back to the Uni. Which screwed up our classes and some othe stuff. After that shit ass class though I’m glad we’re taking a break. So frustrating.

Besides that not much has been going on. I’m itching to go on some big huge shopping spree but even with money in my account I’m still hesitant to go shopping like I use to. I spent about 10 minutes trying to justify buying a book for $12. Which original price was like $16. I skipped on a MAC lipstick I really wanted (and it was the last one they had). And it’s just weird. Life without credit cards really changes you. And I mean I’m glad I’m more conscious of the things I buy but sometimes I just wanna go on a spree you know?

And because a blog is boring without pictures…

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Adventures in… ear flushing

by zel

So about once a year I usually get my ears flushed. Usually my right ear gets plugged up first making sleeping on my right side very uncomfortable and that sucks because the lamp is to my left, so I spend the night attempting to sleep while facing the light.

So why don’t I turn off the light?

I can’t sleep in the dark.

Even in my apartment, I would leave the closet light on. I need light, somewhere. This use to bother my husband, but he’s grown use to it. What a good sport!

So anyway, the last time I went to the doctor to get my ears flushed, they mentioned you could easily do this at home. Here’s the deal with my husband and someone saying “you can do this at home”, he’ll do it. He will watch very carefully, ask questions and then, attempt to do it at home. I seemed to have missed this considering the assistant was flushing my ear while telling him this and it was a glob of earwax that was not coming out. I was too focused on how squishy the inside of my ear sounded.

So, it’s now that time of the year again (I really should do this twice a year to prevent my right ear epic build up) where I need to flush my ears. So husband got an earwax removal kit. Oh.

Here’s the difference between this and what I’m use to. When I call the hospital to set a flushing appointment, they tell me I need to “prep” with drops. So I skip it and I just spring it on them after a check up or something and I don’t use the drops. They just go straight to the flushing. Well, with the home kit, there’s drops and for some reason, this freaks me the fuck out. I read reviews and I have a blogger friend who does this and they say you’ll here “fizzing” and “popping” which means the solution is working then you flush. I’ll hear WHAT and WHAT? Hell no.

So last night I decided to skip the drops and go straight to the flushing. It wasn’t that bad but it sure didn’t help either. Like, at all. My blogger friend even commented that I was brave for attempting such a thing and assured me (again) the drops were the easy part. So later today, we’ll attempt the drops then the flushing. But let me tell you, I’m not excited.

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Things are hectic… and strange

by zel

I just signed up for classes at the community college last night. I’m taking 2 classes there (one of which is at 10am, ugh); a Flash class (husband’s) and a Humanities class (mine). I wasn’t able to get English online or Spanish online so that sucks. I really want to take English 122 over and take a foreign language class. Not to mention my class at UoP. So I have 3 classes, and 2 different school. I know, crazy right? But I’m trying to stay busy and the more credits I get from the community college, the more I can transfer to UoP and knock out some classes. I pushed my grad date back because I took the 8 months off for Disney. Ahhh.

UoP is driving me insane. My learning team sucks, it’s always just me and this other girl who is doing all the talking and doing all the stuff for the paper. The other 3 people take turns disappearing off the face of the planet or they respond like half an hour before the paper is due. Gee, thanks guys. The teacher blows too. She never responds to you and she’s skipped over my discussion question points several times. Seriously? You see all the responses from people, how do you not see WHAT they’re responding to!? ARGH. Fuckin… argh.

Last week was pretty hectic. A lot of stuff happened that I don’t really feel like talking about here. But it’s changed some things, in a good way. I wish I could talk about it, but I’m very protective over the subject and it’s not like anyone would understand either.

I guess I don’t like being here in CA because everyone knows who I am, not who I am, but certain personal things about me. But only because I grew up here and people know my family type thing. I guess I liked it better in FL cause I could be anyone, with any sort of past or no past at all and no one would know the difference. Sometimes life’s just better pretending.

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Week 3 at University of Phoenix.

by zel

So yesterday was week 3, we had a learning team assignment that we didn’t know about because we didn’t read the syllabubs. Not that we knew we had to, I mean… you wouldn’t assume you had to read it after the first day, right?! Well, apparently at UoP, you should probably read it after the first day. So our learning team assignment is obviously late. But I mean, our other learning team partner wasn’t at school last week, so… yeah.

Anyway, it always amazes me how quickly the class always goes by! We’re working on Stress and Time Management, which is probably my favorite subject. I soak up stress like a sponge. I get all the nifty physical sicknesses and pains. We did this “stress test” and I scored a 175 which is in the middle, but I mean… a lot of things (like for example; debt) wasn’t on the list. Martin scored 67 LOL! And the highest score was Calvin at 670.

We also did two presentations! Yes, not one but two. The first one was on 10 things you do to relieve stress and we were broken up into groups of 3 and one group of 2. The married couples had to break up. But I kinda liked working with the people I worked with, it was a nice change. The second presentation was on creating a healthy meal for breakfast, lunch and dinner.

The first presentation I was nervous but not that nervous. I’m trying to talk more in class just to get use to it, cause I know I have to learn how. The second presentation, I wasn’t as nervous as I was with the first one. As soon as I got up there the nervousness stopped. Which was pretty cool. And of course when I got back to my seat, I got a big hug from Martin :).

We went to get dinner at the cafe and I swear. They take forever to get you a cup of soup and a freakin bagel! I mean, come on. How do you make an entire sandwich before getting a cup of soup? It’s so freakin irritating. We were waiting for about 20 minutes and we were late for class by 10 minutes. For a bagel and soup. I mean, seriously? I’ll go get a freakin bagel and soup to go at Panera Bread if that’s the case! Geez.

So we’re down to two weeks left… I’m a bit sad. I like our class and I like our teacher. Overall, I’m really enjoying UoP :).

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Pulled in different directions.

by zel

I’m trying to figure it all out.

Where I’m suppose to be, where I want to be, who I want to be, who I’m suppose to be…. I look back on everything and everything behind me is either blank or a mess. I never pictured my life to turn out this way. I never pictured to be 24, still living at home with no job, no career, no degree and a crazy amount of debt. Oh and married. Never pictured I’d be married.

Then again, at 16 all I could imagine was how wonderful it would be to just end it all. How free I’d feel to finally leave this toxic world behind.

So I guess, I really had no plan. Unless to not live anymore is considered a plan.

When I was graduating high school, I knew what I wanted to be. Plain and simple. A pastry chef. My whole life I was always amazed by food, by cute pastries and pretty designs on cakes. I’ve been collecting cook books since I was a child and I’d flip through the pages and pretend I made what was on those pages. And when I graduated high school and enrolled myself into culinary school with no second thought about it… I thought my dreams were finally going to come true.

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