Day of Thanks ♥

by zel

It’s that time of the year again, the day that officially starts the holidays!

Thanksgiving

My brother is downstairs cooking up amazing food (that I snuck some of upstairs — hey I got hungry), the fireplace is lit, Baby J is trotting around making clicking sounds with his toenails across the kitchen floor following anyone who goes near the food around. The only thing missing? Meez. The first Thanksgiving without her and even right now she would either be sitting on her butt taking a cat nap or laying in her catnip bed, the house still sounds that much more quiet. Feels that much more empty without her here. It’s still a little hard getting use to the fact that I won’t bump into her, or that she won’t scare the crap out of me at 3AM when I have to go pee, or that I’ll never see her pretty face again… and as much as we all miss her, we’re thankful for the seven other holidays she got to spend with us (even if she was a grumpy brat half the time).

This year has been amazing (despite losing my babygirl). Probably the most amazing year I’ve ever had. And there is so much to be thankful for.

I am thankful for the chance to work my dream job and embark on an amazing adventure with an amazing company
I’m thankful for the experiences I had in Florida (both good and bad)
I’m thankful for the real friends I made in Florida, I miss you guys so much
I’m thankful for my adorable and amazing husband who takes care of me with a smile on his face no matter how I’m feeling or who I am that day
I’m thankful for my parents, they have a weird way of showing they are, but it’s nice to know they do
I know I don’t say this ever, but lately I’ve been thankful for my brother. I know we haven’t been in each others lives in a long time but he’s still my not-so-baby bro
I’m thankful for my Baby J for still being my sunshine after the rain
I’m thankful for Meez, cuddling with a cat when you’re sad is a whole different feeling, I miss so much
I’m thankful for Boq for keeping me company for the last two years when I needed company the most, sleep well little one
I’m thankful for the handful of real and fiercely supportive friends I have here in Cali, you guys mean the world to me (you don’t meet your real friends in college, you meet them in middle school)
I’m thankful for making Amazon Vine
I’m thankful for my YouTube partnership
I’m thankful for making Yelp Elite
I’m thankful that all my hard work paid off this year
I’m thankful for books, you are my first love
I’m thankful for the freedom to blog about all the things I love
I’m thankful for Spotify, legit
I’m thankful for Starbucks, there’s a holiday/spring comfort that only Starbucks provides
I’m thankful for Disney, for encouraging me to chase my dream
I’m thankful for Dyno (I guess that would go under Cali friends too) for also being an inspiration to chase my dream
I’m thankful for space heaters, because if mine wasn’t on right now I’d be freezing
I’m thankful for glitter, cause I mean… why not?
I’m thankful for music, for getting my creative juices flowing, always
I’m thankful for all the fucked up shit I had to go through in life to get where I am today, because without it I wouldn’t be as awesome I am now (: but really, without it I wouldn’t know how to live my life to its utter fullest
I’m thankful for my debt, because of it I had to freeze all my credit cards and living credit card free is a different kind of free
I’m thankful for video games, they really help when I’m angry or can’t sleep
I’m thankful for my insomnia, I come up with the best ideas when I’m both awake and tired
I’m thankful for my Canon PowerShot S90, we had some good times and talks around Disney World
I’m thankful for Cherry Pepsi and Dr. Pepper, ten years strong!
I’m thankful for Florida STORMS because Cali doesn’t give me the storms I want like you do
I’m thankful for Palmers Coco Butter and Philosophy’s Hope In a Jar for helping ease my eczema in this dry cold weather
I’m thankful for blogs and bloggers, it’s nice to know other people are into your hobbies too and you’re not alone
I am thankful for Vinylmations and pins (:
I am thankful for towels, cause you know, what would you do without them?! (:
I am thankful for Fruit Roll Ups, because I’m totally craving one right now
I am thankful for candles and the ease they provide
I am thankful for hair curlers, they make my blonde look even better!
I am thankful for KFC’s new Famous Bowls with bacon (I had to)
I’m thankful for Twitter, it encourages me to take more pictures to Twitpic with
I’m thankful for everything in life, big or small because it’s made me who I am today

Happy Thanksgiving everyone, I hope you all have a day filled with amazing food and a lot of love.

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November, the month of thanks

by zel

As if I need more challenges.

But I do miss taking tons of pictures and with the weather and season being so near, maybe this will get me to get back into a few things I miss doing.

As if I have any more time for more hobbies.

I’ve been a little bitter lately. Mostly because the internet has basically taught me that networking with people you know in real life is a bunch of crap. People on Facebook don’t give a shit about other people, they just give a shit if other people give a shit about them. But if you’re on my friends list and you’re trying to get your name out there, please believe I will take that extra one second to “share” or “reblog” your stuff. Because as your friend, I want to see you succeed. Especially if I really believe in your stuff.

Anyway.

Enough of the bitter and negative stuff.

This was all a given.

I’ve decided to update everyday (or at least once a week or something) the things I’m thankful for this month. I usually just do this on Thanksgiving, but I wonder what things I’ll come up with through out the month.

Cause November is one stressful month.

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HAPPY THANKSGiViNG!

by zel

Happy Thanksgiving!

I have so much to be thankful for this year. I can’t even count the things I’m thankful for. 2010, you’ve made me feel like a very lucky girl!

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Waking up, thankful.

by zel

It’s cold today and if there’s anything I love more, it’s waking up to a cold day!

I was going through Facebook and was reading something a former friend posted. It wasn’t anything epic but it made me think about her and how she’s so dramatic over everything. And it made me think about me, and how I use to be dramatic over everything and when I was, I swore the world was against me. Kind of like how she does.

And I thought about how I am now, and how I welcome struggles (but not their headaches) because they help me grow. Every struggle to me, is a stepping stone. And that’s just life, a bunch of stepping stones placed in your way to help you grow. At least, that’s what I think.

I don’t have the perfect husband or the perfect marriage (what is the perfect marriage anyway?) but I love him and I know I will continue to love him until the end of time. He’s not flawless like I thought he was at some point of my life, but I like knowing his flaws. I like knowing him. Every inch of him. And I love him on his worst days and on his best days.

I don’t have the perfect life. It’s so far from it. But I don’t mind, because perfect would be far too boring. I’m happy and content with my life. For the first time… ever. And it’s such a wonderful feeling. To finally love yourself and where you are in your life even if it’s not where you want to be. Everything takes time and work and of course, struggle.

I’m happy to be starting my life over and working my dream job soon. I’m happy to be living somewhere with new scenery! But… I just realized how much I’ll miss my family, random trips and seeing them. I’ll miss my Boqers and his silly chubbyness. And my Jay, who’s breathing has been scaring the crap out of me lately.

But still, I love the days when I wake up thankful for life and everything in it :)

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Thanksgiving!

by zel

Happy Thanksgiving!!

Unfortunately Martin isnt home yet, he did call me this morning to say Happy Thanksgiving and that he’s thankful for me. We spent a huge chunk of the phone call talking about Religion, which was… weird. Weird because his views on religion are opposite from when he enlisted. He told me to be good and he was thankful for me again before we hung up and I just broke down. No idea why, he sounded concerned and assured me he’d be home soon. Then he tried to get me to sing “For Good” to cheer me up :)

I was suppose to clean my room today but my closet just looks so… hopeless. Seriously. There’s random crap stacked up on random crap in there, I dont know how I’m ever going to see my closet floor. It wasnt that bad last year, I somehow made it work… I’m sure if I tried hard enough I could make it work this year… lets hope, yeah?

I finished Sweep: Blood Witch. I’m having mixed feelings about Cal and Hunter especially after I read that dang spoiler yesterday on accident. And the Runes that Sky & Hunter put on Morgan’s house didnt seem to be anything of harm, the girl is just not listening. Total Bella/Edward-ish (besides that this book came out wayyy before Twilight). I’m excited to read the fourth book. I’m starting to run out of books lol. The only thing I keep thinking is “where am I going to store all 15 books?!” seriously.

Took advantage of some of the Thanksgiving only sales today. Oh shopping online! I didnt do that much damage though, I was on the search for a hoodie like my Aero one but they dont have that type anymore. Darn.

THiNGS i’M THANKFUL FOR:

My amazing fiance who’s never given up on me no matter how off the wall, extreme, psycho or stubborn I get. For always being there to support me on my next crazy idea or my newest obsession. For jumping up and down with me when I’m excited. For always trying to understand me even when its hard to. And for loving me as unconditional as he does.
My parents for being so supportive since Martin left. For understanding how much this wedding means to me. For offering their help, constantly. For caring even though sometimes they have a weird way of showing it.
My wonderful friends who are always there no matter what time of day/night it is to listen to me babble until I feel better. For my bro for always being there, srsly dont know where I’d be without him!
My Meez & Jay for brightening my days and being my sunshine!
Boq, the hamster my mama got me :)
Blogging. I’d probably go nuts without it!
All I’ve accomplished in the last year without even knowing it. It’s nice to know that I’m getting somewhere :)
The Air Force for this crazy adventure that we both hate lol
Wicked for being awesome enough to inspire me to create and try new things and take changes I normally would never take.
Everything life has to offer :)
Finding Nemo gummy multivitamins cause man, they’re delicious!
Books! I’ve re-discovered my love for reading in the last 2 months.
The new camera I got myself last week. Love! Love! Love!
GLEE!
For the ability to stay positive no matter the situation.
My wedding! I’m so excited and nervous!
Baskin Robbins Fudge Crunch Cake (makes everything better, no lie)
The holiday spirit (my favorite time of the year)!
Finding the perfect Sugar Cookie soaps for my wedding favors. Love!
KOHLS for the amazing boots, hoodie and shirts I recently got. LOVE! Haha.