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All the right friends & all the right places…

by zel

2012, you’re lonely.

Right now last year, I wanted to scream I love my life loud enough for everyone to hear. Hardly feel that way right now. It’s crazy, isn’t it? How much can change is 365 days. How you can go from the best days of your life and suddenly to the lowest. Things are difficult here, I wish I could say more because I could use encouraging words, but I don’t know. I just don’t feel right talking about it. I guess not right now. But maybe some day, you know, when it doesn’t really matter anymore.

Other than that, I failed my first class in the last year and a half and I’m pretty much kicking myself for it. It wasn’t that I didn’t try, it was that the instructor was horrible. I worked harder in this class than I ever had in the last year and a half only to completely fail. And it’s such a crappy feeling. Knowing you spent SO much time and effort just to make it seem like you didn’t do crap. Kinda makes you wish you didn’t do crap, maybe my feelings wouldn’t be so hurt right now. I want to fight the case. I’m not one to complain much or report anyone, ever. But really, if she doesn’t care enough to teach a class maybe she should leave and give the job to someone who will actually give a fuck. I’m just sayin.

… I need some positive points here.

Five kittens moved in about a month ago, after some unexpected accident happened. Like literally, that day. Just out of nowhere I see five kittens and their mom. And the kittens were jumping around, playing and napping in our grass. Like they live here! Well, a month later and… they’re still doing the same thing. We don’t mind so much, it’s nice having cats around again. People are saying our babygirl who passed sort of recently sent them. But five? What is she trying to say? There’s one that acts just like her. Really. It’s insane.

[ T-B, L-R: BeJeweled, my current obsession, hubs feeding ducks, obsession #2 & kittens ]

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One short day, with so much to do…!

by zel

Autumn is here, or well, it’s suppose to be… it was raining and freezing last week. This week it’s like, high 80′s. It’s ridiculous. Give me back the cold and rain! Mostly because when it’s hot, like this and there’s no A/C, I’m most likely to do nothing but complain.

October is half way done and that’s just insane to think about. I’ve only read two books from my Halloween challenge (out of 12) but that’s because I needed to squeeze in review books too, I’m on my pretty much last review book for the month from Amazon but it’s a thick one. Hopefully I get done with it before the next Vine email comes around. I have two for publishers that need to be done, one that needs to be done by the end of this month and one that’s for next month. Then there’s NaNoWriMo creeping up in two weeks, I’ve toyed with my idea and wrote a bit down, but not enough to ensure a smooth sail for NaNoWriMo this year. Oh well, I’m still hoping! I think that’s it as far as bookish things for the next month or so.

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It’s finally summer!

by zel

I’ve been so horrible with updating this, I know I say that almost every single time I come back… but I have! And I feel really bad about it (not that anyone really reads this… lol)! But school at the Community College is finally over! And now I’m just stuck with my one-day-a-week classes at University. I’m trying to find a government job, but it’s hard when you don’t really know where to look. I’m hoping for a job at the AFB.

I hate summer. I really really hate summer. I don’t do well in heat, as good as it feels sometimes, I can’t stand it for the most part. I hate sweating! Also summer brings bugs and I hate bugs! Oh winter, please come back soon!

Speaking of bugs, I spotted a huge freakin tick on my dogs ear the other day! I thought it was a tumor and I was freaking out so I showed my mom and she was like “oh! it’s just a really big flea” and like, plucked it off like it was nothing. Filipino parents man, nothing scares them! My dad squished a wolf spider last year like it was an ant. Weird. I wish I was that brave!

I have a lot of picture filled posts to fill. Went on a random getaway with a good friend the other weekend to Disneyland and Las Vegas! My first road trip! It was… interesting. Not as horrible as I thought it would be, but I don’t know if I’d drive that far again lol. I’m a flyer. Even though I hate flying, sometimes. It’s just painful. If it wasn’t painful, I’d love it. I got a few new goodies this week thanks to UoP! Haha. I finally got my hands on a sexy Mac Book Pro and an Amazon Kindle (which is a bit hard to figure out)!

I’ve been stuck in a book reviewing rut lately. I’m fine with reading but I haven’t been in the mood to review the books I’ve been reading and now it’s starting to pile up. I know I should probably review them soon before the stories fade or jumble up and I’m screwed lol. I’ve got a bunch of new release books I’m excited to read as well! Like the Bree Tanner book, My Name is Memory, Everlasting (which I’m reading now), Rules of Attraction… which I’m super excited about. I finished the Wings series as far as it goes for right now, so I’m super happy about that (I always feel obligated to finish a series if I start it). I’m slowly working through Wicked Lovely. Still searching for awesome amazing Erotica’s.

What else? I’m slowing working my way through cleaning my entire room. I’ve got the closet as good as I can get it, for now. Which is fine, I can see the floor! And I cleaned up under my desk and chair, which I’m really happy about because there was so much clutter down there for the longest time! It’s nice to see it so nice and organized now! I’ve been on a nail polish and pretty perfume bottle kick lately. Husband isn’t going to be happy lol. Hung out with an old friend who opened my eyes this passed weekend. I’m a little hurt over some of the things I found out, but I wonder why when I think, all along, I was expecting it. It was obvious, so why should my feelings be hurt? It’s just weird, I think. To feel that way, not the situation itself. It’s just life, as well *shrug.

If you’re curious… I update here for my little one paragraph blog entries when I don’t have much to say :).

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Lack of updates!!

by zel

I dont know what happened but things got really busy out of nowhere around here! Its crazy! I got a little sick on Wednesday, that hunger headache lasted longer than it should have and left me feeling feverish. Got to see Wicked for a fourth time too, Nicolas and Neka remembered me by name :D it was so exciting! I felt extremely special all day! I also got my Urban Decay Alice in Wonderland BOS so yay for that! Last time I’m buying an eye shadow palette for $53 though! Ugh, talk about a dent in my bank account!

We’re deciding on what to do with our bills situation, I think we’ve come to a conclusion but some details still need to be worked out. Also, we got new phones finally! We made the switch and it’s going to really bring down our phone bills, I’m excited! I got my Palm Pixi and he got an HTC Hero. I was surprised how fast he made up his mind, he usually needs a minute! Haha. So far, I’m IN LOVE with my Palm Pixi! I’ll be doing a review soon. I’m debating if I should to a blog or a vlog review. Going to change my last name next week, I kinda wanted to wait til we moved out together, but he suggested we do it before handling the bills situation. Poohie.

So yeah, this is just a really quick update, I’ll have a better one coming Sunday with pictures and everything, hopefully!

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It’s sunny today!

by zel

I’m so excited that it’s sunny today! After a week of fog, clouds and rain! Of course, I’m not going to get my hopes too high, for all we know we could be having another thunderstorm tomorrow morning. But I’m going to enjoy the sun while I can. The downside? Being stuck at home having to clean my room and update things. I wish I could be outside right now!

I know I’ve been lacking in the updating department, and updating with pictures but honestly, I havent been taking many pictures. Which makes me sad! I’ve been so busy with school starting, struggling to get the classes I wanted (which I didnt because they started this new rule where the teachers put priority on the students who previously took their classes, what kind of crap is that!), applying for jobs far from home and dealing with debt. Oh how I wish I could just sit on my floor and read a book and not feel like there’s something more productive I should be doing :(.

I got my ears flushed the other day, finally. Finally I can sleep on my right side without my ear plugging up, its amazing! The downside? Everything is like 5 times louder, I’m not even kidding. Running the water is extremely loud, which makes me wonder… how plugged up were my ears?! My husband was there when they flushed it (as always) but the right ear that was plugged up grossed him out when they pulled out this HUGE chunk of ear wax. The left ear didnt flush out, but she said it may come out later in the shower. She was wrong. I was in the Olive Garden parking lot about to get lunch and something tickled my ear so I scratched it and on my finger was a HUGE chunk of ear wax. Not a nice experience. So I dug out the rest, I wouldnt want to sit in Olive Garden and a glop of ear wax falls on my table. Does anyone else flush their ears? It’s a really nice feeling actually once you get passed the waves-crashing-sound.

So the month is over and my room hasnt been cleaned. Or touched. Husband says that my room’s just a lost cause and we should just clean it out when we move. Yeah, sure. Doesnt look like we’re moving any time soon. And I would like to get this room cleaned out before the summer time when all the bugs come out. I live near a hill and and there are plenty of yucky bugs that welcome themselves into our home over the summer. Not dealing with spending hours looking for a pesky spider cause I have too much crap laying around my floor!

That said, I think I’ll go grab my lunch and start getting to work!

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