Right now last year, I wanted to scream I love my life loud enough for everyone to hear. Hardly feel that way right now. It’s crazy, isn’t it? How much can change is 365 days. How you can go from the best days of your life and suddenly to the lowest. Things are difficult here, I wish I could say more because I could use encouraging words, but I don’t know. I just don’t feel right talking about it. I guess not right now. But maybe some day, you know, when it doesn’t really matter anymore.

Other than that, I failed my first class in the last year and a half and I’m pretty much kicking myself for it. It wasn’t that I didn’t try, it was that the instructor was horrible. I worked harder in this class than I ever had in the last year and a half only to completely fail. And it’s such a crappy feeling. Knowing you spent SO much time and effort just to make it seem like you didn’t do crap. Kinda makes you wish you didn’t do crap, maybe my feelings wouldn’t be so hurt right now. I want to fight the case. I’m not one to complain much or report anyone, ever. But really, if she doesn’t care enough to teach a class maybe she should leave and give the job to someone who will actually give a fuck. I’m just sayin.

… I need some positive points here.

Five kittens moved in about a month ago, after some unexpected accident happened. Like literally, that day. Just out of nowhere I see five kittens and their mom. And the kittens were jumping around, playing and napping in our grass. Like they live here! Well, a month later and… they’re still doing the same thing. We don’t mind so much, it’s nice having cats around again. People are saying our babygirl who passed sort of recently sent them. But five? What is she trying to say? There’s one that acts just like her. Really. It’s insane.

[ T-B, L-R: BeJeweled, my current obsession, hubs feeding ducks, obsession #2 & kittens ]

This is pretty much 2012 so far. I’ve been playing a lot of Bejeweled Blitz on my new iPhone (how did I ever survive without one?! I know, I feel like such a sell out but OMG the things you can do with this thing!!). I’m starting to think that you can’t exceed a certain score on phones… Cinnabon and I have rekindled our relationship. I finally hit green status on my Starbucks card and haven’t bought anything since because I can not get enough of these damn Mochalatta Chill’s! Why did I ever stop drinking them?!

I’m set to discover new places in Northern California. Mostly because I’m tired of going to the same places over and over and because I want to vlog about something interesting. The place where husband is feeding the ducks is AMAZING and I can’t believe I’ve never been there (drove passed it for years though)!! It’s relaxing, quiet and they sell these little take out boxes for $1.95 filled with food (like corn and stuff) to feed the ducks!

I’ve discovered Snapea Crisps. Husband actually went out to get me more one day after I finished the last bag. He couldn’t find the exact bag so he got me these, two bags of them. They’re SO much better! It’s sweet the things he’ll do just because I’m craving (: he also got me a Mochalatta Chill the other day while he was out looking for his Turtle Beach headset for his game. And this was after he dropped off lunch for me (: and a picture of the kittens. The one on the far left is “MeanSauce” who acts like our babygirl and the one sneaking away is the runt. He has a nook, that he never leaves.

I keep telling myself to clean and sort and purge things. Then I tell myself again the next day. Then get frustrated because nothing’s done and tell myself again. I blame OCD, seriously, with this cold weather I don’t want to wash my hands 100 times.

The SOPA blackout protest is tomorrow, who’s participating? I AM!!! Going to (hopefully) get to that cleaning and sorting stuff. Maybe crochet a bit, catch up on some reading (I hope to read 50 books this year), maybe take a nap… does playing Bejeweled count? I really hope not…

Off to fill in my new 2012 calender (:

October is half way done and that’s just insane to think about. I’ve only read two books from my Halloween challenge (out of 12) but that’s because I needed to squeeze in review books too, I’m on my pretty much last review book for the month from Amazon but it’s a thick one. Hopefully I get done with it before the next Vine email comes around. I have two for publishers that need to be done, one that needs to be done by the end of this month and one that’s for next month. Then there’s NaNoWriMo creeping up in two weeks, I’ve toyed with my idea and wrote a bit down, but not enough to ensure a smooth sail for NaNoWriMo this year. Oh well, I’m still hoping! I think that’s it as far as bookish things for the next month or so.

I’m trying to get back into blogging on my other blogs; my review blog which is suffering a bit right now. I’m trying to get back into vlogging too, but I don’t know. Blah! It’s been a long time and I just feel dumb every time I look back on the video. I guess it’s just uncomfortable since I’m not sitting at my desk and nothing is organized the way I want it to be. I was suppose to get back into weekly reviews on this blog but that, for some reason, didn’t happen. Hopefully I’ll post it before Sunday. This current week though, nothing too interesting going on. I need to start taking more pictures through the week. Even if I’m just having a boring lazy day at home.

Had a good mail day yesterday (which is kinda random), two books from HarperTeen came in for review that are 2012 debuts I believe. A gift from a friend in Orlando that I’m super excited about and I got my new holiday purse, whoot!

Husband has been working on animations all week, he’s getting better really fast. I’m so proud of him. I’ll blog about that later (:

As for everything else… I still need to organize and completely unpack. I need to figure out my next move. I’m planning a snowy vacay to visit some friends next year, I’m really excited about that! Then planning to go to BEA next year too, omgosh. Super excited about that (and Justin’s coming with us, yay)! Looking forward to getting the iPhone 4GS next month hehe.

My mind’s been MIA all week, pretty much, I’ve been taking trips down memory lane, and I swear… with all that’s happened, I could write a full novel of all the people I use to be friends with. And maybe I should write it out, even if it’ll never be published, just to get it off my chest. And speaking of, today I’m feeling a little… disappointed. I guess. Well no, I don’t think that’s exactly the word I’m looking for… but it’s about nothing new at all, so I’m trying to tell myself to move on. It can be so easy. It can be, if I want it to be.

Now to get back to work.

I hate summer. I really really hate summer. I don’t do well in heat, as good as it feels sometimes, I can’t stand it for the most part. I hate sweating! Also summer brings bugs and I hate bugs! Oh winter, please come back soon!

Speaking of bugs, I spotted a huge freakin tick on my dogs ear the other day! I thought it was a tumor and I was freaking out so I showed my mom and she was like “oh! it’s just a really big flea” and like, plucked it off like it was nothing. Filipino parents man, nothing scares them! My dad squished a wolf spider last year like it was an ant. Weird. I wish I was that brave!

I have a lot of picture filled posts to fill. Went on a random getaway with a good friend the other weekend to Disneyland and Las Vegas! My first road trip! It was… interesting. Not as horrible as I thought it would be, but I don’t know if I’d drive that far again lol. I’m a flyer. Even though I hate flying, sometimes. It’s just painful. If it wasn’t painful, I’d love it. I got a few new goodies this week thanks to UoP! Haha. I finally got my hands on a sexy Mac Book Pro and an Amazon Kindle (which is a bit hard to figure out)!

I’ve been stuck in a book reviewing rut lately. I’m fine with reading but I haven’t been in the mood to review the books I’ve been reading and now it’s starting to pile up. I know I should probably review them soon before the stories fade or jumble up and I’m screwed lol. I’ve got a bunch of new release books I’m excited to read as well! Like the Bree Tanner book, My Name is Memory, Everlasting (which I’m reading now), Rules of Attraction… which I’m super excited about. I finished the Wings series as far as it goes for right now, so I’m super happy about that (I always feel obligated to finish a series if I start it). I’m slowly working through Wicked Lovely. Still searching for awesome amazing Erotica’s.

What else? I’m slowing working my way through cleaning my entire room. I’ve got the closet as good as I can get it, for now. Which is fine, I can see the floor! And I cleaned up under my desk and chair, which I’m really happy about because there was so much clutter down there for the longest time! It’s nice to see it so nice and organized now! I’ve been on a nail polish and pretty perfume bottle kick lately. Husband isn’t going to be happy lol. Hung out with an old friend who opened my eyes this passed weekend. I’m a little hurt over some of the things I found out, but I wonder why when I think, all along, I was expecting it. It was obvious, so why should my feelings be hurt? It’s just weird, I think. To feel that way, not the situation itself. It’s just life, as well *shrug.

If you’re curious… I update here for my little one paragraph blog entries when I don’t have much to say :).

We’re deciding on what to do with our bills situation, I think we’ve come to a conclusion but some details still need to be worked out. Also, we got new phones finally! We made the switch and it’s going to really bring down our phone bills, I’m excited! I got my Palm Pixi and he got an HTC Hero. I was surprised how fast he made up his mind, he usually needs a minute! Haha. So far, I’m IN LOVE with my Palm Pixi! I’ll be doing a review soon. I’m debating if I should to a blog or a vlog review. Going to change my last name next week, I kinda wanted to wait til we moved out together, but he suggested we do it before handling the bills situation. Poohie.

So yeah, this is just a really quick update, I’ll have a better one coming Sunday with pictures and everything, hopefully!

I know I’ve been lacking in the updating department, and updating with pictures but honestly, I havent been taking many pictures. Which makes me sad! I’ve been so busy with school starting, struggling to get the classes I wanted (which I didnt because they started this new rule where the teachers put priority on the students who previously took their classes, what kind of crap is that!), applying for jobs far from home and dealing with debt. Oh how I wish I could just sit on my floor and read a book and not feel like there’s something more productive I should be doing :(.

I got my ears flushed the other day, finally. Finally I can sleep on my right side without my ear plugging up, its amazing! The downside? Everything is like 5 times louder, I’m not even kidding. Running the water is extremely loud, which makes me wonder… how plugged up were my ears?! My husband was there when they flushed it (as always) but the right ear that was plugged up grossed him out when they pulled out this HUGE chunk of ear wax. The left ear didnt flush out, but she said it may come out later in the shower. She was wrong. I was in the Olive Garden parking lot about to get lunch and something tickled my ear so I scratched it and on my finger was a HUGE chunk of ear wax. Not a nice experience. So I dug out the rest, I wouldnt want to sit in Olive Garden and a glop of ear wax falls on my table. Does anyone else flush their ears? It’s a really nice feeling actually once you get passed the waves-crashing-sound.

So the month is over and my room hasnt been cleaned. Or touched. Husband says that my room’s just a lost cause and we should just clean it out when we move. Yeah, sure. Doesnt look like we’re moving any time soon. And I would like to get this room cleaned out before the summer time when all the bugs come out. I live near a hill and and there are plenty of yucky bugs that welcome themselves into our home over the summer. Not dealing with spending hours looking for a pesky spider cause I have too much crap laying around my floor!

That said, I think I’ll go grab my lunch and start getting to work!