thisgirlispoison

I was debating on posting this today or tomorrow since tomorrow is my audition. But maybe I’ll just dedicate a whole blog post to that day alone.

So, what happened this week? Not much… I realized I haven’t been taking as many pictures as I use to… but then again, nothing worth taking pictures of has happened.

And I still need to post about my birthday, don’t I? Eep.

So class on Monday was the usual… we were on “team gabe” but he turned it into “team hazel” cause I kept getting all the answers right. “you’re getting everything right and you don’t talk!” I do too talk. Just, not that much!

I finally got around to cleaning the area in front of my TV (OMG I can see the FLOOR there now… and my Wii! Oh how long it’s been, I thought I had lost you forever Wii!) and I came across this. No journal of mine has ever been more private than this one. It was my high school notebook that I brought around with me everywhere. I was reading though it and it had days I was missing in my blogs, days I wondered what happened. Days I didn’t want to read about. Days of abuse, of confusion, of wanting to end it all. Conversations with people, with someone I miss. A conversation that made me miss that person even more and realizing he’s never coming back. That friendship, that bond, is gone. It’s depressing, but it’s also life.

And pages with Martin’s familiar hand writing. The majority of the time when I’d be writing in this back in high school, in class, I would be sitting in front of Martin in Journalism with my head phones on and he’d bug me. It’s like, as soon as I pulled out the journal, he’d start bugging me. Never failed! Which is funny because now that I’m married to him, every time I pull out a journal or a book, he does the same thing lol!

I remember him underlining the words but I don’t remember writing this, or why I wrote this. It’s just funny to see us as we were when we just met, when we were just friends and to look at us now. He was always the one I joked around with about killing myself. We were both those students who didn’t really care about anything. I think that’s why we ended up being friends. But he definitely made my days more tolerable at school…. even if he was trying to stab me with my own pens… or flinging staples into my soup… or stapling my orange… wait was that my orange? Or letting me draw rainbows and flowers on his arm and “hazel is so much cooler than me” and wear it around school lol.

Oh I also got a wicked gash on my index finger (on the bendy part too!) from moving books around. Who knew books could be lethal?!

I finally got to go to Target… ALONE. I haven’t gone anywhere alone since Martin came home. So yes, that was indeed refreshing. Oh how I missed that freedom! I went to Bed Bath and Beyond and Target.

I got this little guy from Bed Bath & Beyond! I love Sock Monkey! I have slippers of him that I’ve had for years. They’re my favorite slippers, ever! Now I have him in plushie! Yay!

Also finally got my hands on this!! Austin Powers: The Spy Who Shagged Me is one of my all time favorite movies! I hated Goldmember though. My Target finally got fixed up, they added the grocery which is HUGE but they didn’t have ELF (Eyes Lips Face) stuff there yet. Booo.

My damage. I got my birthday Sephora shipment too! So excited! I finally replaced my Lash Blast, I didn’t get what the big deal about this mascara was until yesterday. Got the new Revlon lipstick everyone’s been raving about, but the color I got Soft Nude doesn’t show up great on my skin tone. It’s hard for me to find a lipstick that works good with me. Got a new foundation, I can never tell if I matched myself right… annnnd… I finally got my Cake Beauty Lip Butter in Lemon Chiffon!!

I am the most excited about this!! I am a sucker for anything Lemon Chiffon. Or anything chiffon to be honest! I’ve been itching to pull out my culinary school notebook and make an almond chiffon cake… but in my house, that’s unlikely! Even though I went to culinary school, my dad still thinks my baking will burn the house down. No faith!

Anyway, this lip butter smells exactly like Lemon Chiffon. I may have to get a back up… or 5! Hehe :).

Found these at Target… they’re…. weird. Good, but weird. I also picked up some new Skittles that I didn’t take a picture of cause they’re in my car (oops). Those were… weird too. Would it be weird to do food reviews here? Hm, it’s my blog, I can what I want!

When I had planned on writing this blog (yesterday) I was going to say I started reading this book today. Well, now that I wrote it today instead of yesterday… I finished this book today.

It was a really really cute read. The ending made me feel both relieved but… what the hell at the same time. The story changed obviously but it wasn’t the ending I was expecting. And it’s crazy to think of the ending and the entire book all together. It was well written. And it kinda had that idea that Martin told me to write about but there’s no way I could consturct a book like that, especially if it had to do with my life because I wouldn’t know the outcome. I finished this book wanting to know more, what else happened? I love when a book does that but at the same time… it’s frustrating lol.

Review on this soon! I need to sort my feelings and thoughts towards it first lol.’

It feels like one of those days I’d be sleeping in my stuffy Journalism class. I guess listening to Linkin Park kinda helped that feeling :). Never thought I’d be married to Martin. Crazy. I’d always tell him “I’ll feel sorry for your future wife” when he’d tell me the most off the wall things… and you know… I do feel sorry for his wife LOL!

CONVO OF THE WEEK:
Me: I would totally try to drive through SF again to see Wicked. Even if I crashed, it would be totally worth it. See now THAT’S PASSION!
JD: Determination. WATCH WICKED OR DIE TRYING!
Me: YES. THAT is going on my profile!

Damn when was the last time I had a “convo of the…”?